starting.

i'll start to not keep my hopes up.

i'll force myself this time.

cause having high hope cause you to drop so hard,

so hard that you feel like you can be torn apart that instance.

so hard that even squeezing out a smile would be that hard.

since young man, since young.

so many question racing inside my mind.

why this? why that?

i feel like spilling everything out right this second!

but i can't.

i just don't want to hurt other people's feeling.

i rather i'm the one suffering.

and yes, i'm in the emo phase right now.

just bare with me.

if you don't like it,

just leave my blog for this month,

come back when my finals are over.

maybe i won't be that emo afterall. o.O

sorry to my friends,

whom i promised that i won't be emo anymore,

i can't do it.

i can't promise you guys.

and trust me, i'm alright. just alright.

war nicht, was ich erwartet hatte.

Aber wir kann ich sagen, dass es aus?

die Art der unzufriedenen Gefuhl,

die Art der unappreciated Gefuhl,

die Art von unwichtigen Gefuhl,

Sie werden nie wissen,

die wahre Geschichte.