yes, yes and yes!

for something that make me upset,

or for some people who gives me the left out feeling,

i'll most probably remember it for the rest of my life.

yes, I'm that kind of person who can't let go of the past.

yes, I'm also a very sensitive person.

mum hinted me a little, which is true.

I starting to feel hurt and upset once I hear my mum's analysis.

yes, I'm being sensitive all over again.

yes, I've made myself ignore that fact.

yes, I thought ignoring would be the best way but it isn't.

I only end up being the one suffering in the end.

but do you guys ever notice that i was offended?

this is because you guys have never been left out before.

ever in your life.

thus, you guys will never know how it feels like.

being the last one to know almost everything.

the feeling sucks ya know?

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I just seriously don't know what else to do de.

How many years have I been carrying this feeling?

I always thought that I was the main problem.

But somehow blaming myself for everything is sooo self abusing.

Crying alone in my room where nobody ever knows why?

or would any of you even notice I was suffering?

But I have to smile even though I don't feel like.

I just don't like to see my friends worrying about me.

Or get annoyed by me complaining.

The mask I put on almost everyday,

It's tiring, you know, really tiring.

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