The competition

Hey my blog readers. Wondering where have i dissapear to?

Haha. I just finish the PMO competition. We got ninth.

But my seniors say we are good cause we got into the finals.

Ok. I will start on the semi final day.

19 December 2008, Friday

Went to school at 10. Usual time was 9 but teacher want us to rest.

Went to practise at the hall. My seniors complain and tell me.

Saying that i wasn't using enough strength. Maybe i wasn't.

After lunch i tried to use. Mum was watching.

Cause she picked up bro from Choir practise.

She said i wasn't enjoying the rhythm. I look too stilled.

I did enjoy before that. Before i get tense up and stress.

Later mum went home to avoid jam.

Then it's practise practise practise.

When teacher ask us to take a break, i pull Lam to QM toilet.

Then i started to cry already. I cannot stop.

Shun Ting and Sook Fah was there and watch me cry.

When i finally stop crying and we were late.

My seniors keep asking me when competition must smile.

I can't smile. Who can smile after crying wor.

Then i cannot tahan anymore then i start crying again.

Quan Hui keep asking me why i cry but i keep asking myself to stop!

At last i stop and try to focus.

Later sat in the bus with Shun-Ting, she keep make me laugh.

The at last it was competition time. the dinner was good!!

There's egg, bittergourd(yummy), and 2 vege's.

Hahaha. Ok, when i was on the stage. I was almost freaking out.

My heart was pumping super super fast.

But my friends say I, no WE was loud enough.

Wakakakaka. Hmm, after that, a few wait for the results.

To see if we can get into the finals.

Mum and Dad was there when i reach back school.

Pooi Ling said the results are coming out soon. So, M&D wait.

We wait and wait and WE GOT INTO THE FINALS!

hahahahahahahahaha!! Ok, went home and doze off.

20 December 2008, Saturday

Went to school at 9 today. Was super sleepy.

Why we have to go early? Cause we are the first group!!

Oh man! Pressure pressure the whole morning.

OK, I was very very dissapointed in myself today!

I didn't do my best. I did better in the semi. WHAT THE?

We stayed and sneak in to the competition hall.

Cause we plan to wait till night for the results.

When the results came out. All of us were dissapointed.

I feel like crying. Both of us. Me and Shun-Ting.

Shun-Ting went off with her mum and she sms me.

She's already crying. Lam lam was beside me.

When i called my mum to tell her what time to fetch me.

I can't tahan and start crying. Lam lam keep comforting me.

Then Chee Han also keep patting my head.

I know i don't have the right to cry. It's already happen.

But i feel like i'm the trouble maker. Why didn't i do my best?

WHY? That was also the last day i saw the form 5 seniors.

Went home with tears and forced smiles.